Whether to write or not, is this a question that needs answering?

I have been encouraged to write a detailed experience piece about my journey through the 25 years of fixing and then learning to live with a broken back and the host of other injuries that accompany this kind of issue. Broke not in the literal sense but broken none the less as it controls my every waking sensation.

No, I do not expect you to understand, it is really difficult to do that! The degree of empathy required is along the lines of Spock's mind-meld stuff of the 1960's Star Trek. I have lived not being able to pick up my son or daughter because if they swung their body, against my weight, it could drop me to my knees in a second.

You might wonder why I don't "just have it fixed". Well, have you read and researched any long term [20+ year studies of surgery verses not too much except meds and exercise] and figured out that, out of the 30,000 patients studied, the success rate was about 25% and then after 10 years that the patients were in the same condition as the bunch who did nothing except try to lose weight. As you read longer term studies, 15 or 20 years, the patients on lower pain meds, are the ones who did not have surgery. Seems like a simple thought process to me, logic says don't do surgery until you are in a wheel chair.

It has taken 4 years, of Dr visits, and tests, to get to the point where I am back to feeling like I going to enjoy the future, rather than fear it. I am not in control of how this is going to play out for me, but I now know that I am in perfect health, with the only problem of a really bad back. The rest of the details are being saved for the book of how to live each day to the fullest while in this kind of situation.

Save the world, as a statement, is fine. I have always bee the type you had the white horse and the suit of shiny armor. Today, I have only myself to save. I cannot carry or help others too much, unless I can carry my own and do it well. It is for this reason that I would even bother to spend some time taking my experience and transform it into some life lessons for others. I never have to defend these insights, because they are my honest experience. Use them or not, it is not me who has to wonder whether they work. I know they work, I stand and walk and use a cane if the day warrants it. It does not matter how fast I move, but only that I continue to move forward each day. In this way, I have moved forward from a day in Jan, 25 or more years ago.

[edit - I may be back to this a little later -DFR- I came back and fixed this up!]